I was sitting in my daughters room feeding her this morning and I looked in her closet and saw her ultrasounds, first pacifier from the hospital and some newborn diapers that family and friends had written little messages on. And I thought, she used to fit into those diapers. Look at her now, growing every single day, moving like crazy and grabbing everything!
And I realized that sometimes I forget to enjoy every moment. Time goes by so fast and I want to remember it, I want to enjoy it, I want to live it. And I’m so glad my daughter helped me realize that again this morning. So, here’s a letter to her even though I should’ve done this before she came into this world.
I am so grateful you are mine. Before you came, I was so scared and worried. Worried that I wouldn’t be able to handle going through labor and being a mom. Worried that my relationship with your dad would suffer and wouldn’t be the same after you came. Worried that I would love you so much that I would be too worried about you every second.
And all of those were partly true. I did make it through labor and I am a mom. Some moments I can’t handle it and some moments I struggle but that’s why your dad is here too! My relationship with him is different than before you came and we’ve had to re-learn how to take time for each other and show our love for each other. And I am worried about you all the time. But I’ve learned how to not let it consume me and to enjoy you instead.
So thank you. Thank you for making me a mom. Thank you for teaching me how to love your dad more deeply and more freely. Thank you for giving me patience. Thank you for love me and trusting me with your life. Thank you for helping me be a stronger woman, a stronger wife, a stronger daughter of God. Thank you for smiling at me when I sing to you. Thank you for always being happy even when you’re crying. Thank you for being my first baby. Thank you for coming into our family. I love you Adalynn.