the journal

Hey love,

4 years ago today you made me the happiest girl alive. I know that sounds silly, but it really is true. I can’t believe it’s already been 4 years. We’ve been married now for as long as we were dating and that is amazing. It hasn’t been easy and we’ve had our struggles but I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I remember being so worried about happily ever after before we got married. I thought that marriage was going to be all rainbows and butterflies and that we’d both be happy all the time. Then reality slapped me in the face and I realized that marriage is about compromise and sacrifice and hard work. It’s about communication and learning to let go of your own pride and just focus on someone else. Which is actually really hard for me. I knew when we got married, that you would make me happy. But I didn’t think about what I needed to do to keep you happy. To help you feel loved and appreciated. And the longer we’ve been married, the more I realize that it’s not about me.

I’ve noticed that the times when I try my best to serve you and to notice your positive qualities, I am happier. And it’s not because of anything you’re doing or not doing, it’s because of my attitude towards you. I sometimes feel like I’m a pretty selfish person and I know I ask you to do a lot for me and for our family, on a daily basis. But you’ve never complained and you’ve always helped with anything I needed, even if it did take you a couple weeks. 😉 The last few months have been hard, to say the least. Family trials and me being pregnant and so annoyed all the time has really tried our relationship. But I’m so grateful to have someone who will never give up on me. You have more faith in me than I have in myself and I don’t tell you enough how much it means to me. You strengthen me. You lift me up when I’m sad or frustrated and you always know how to make me laugh, even when I’m crying. With your silly puns and your easy going attitude and with the faith that everything will be okay. Thank you for not being a worrier like I am, or at least for not showing it as much as I do. haha.

Thank you for providing for our family even though I know right now you don’t feel you are. Thank you for being so good with Adalynn. You are an amazing father and you are so good at playing with Adalynn and I know that this next baby girl we’re having will be just as loved. Thank you for being kind always and for being so in tune with what God wants you to do. That’s something I’ve always admired about you. You are close to your Savior and He’s the one that guides your life, and mine through you. I’m sorry if I haven’t always listened or if I’m sometimes stubborn about things. I’m working on it, I promise. I promise to keep working on my weaknesses and to keep loving you even when times are hard. I love you Geoffrey Tapp. Happy Anniversary.

Love your wife <3